Baby Kautz: FIRST day back to work!! I survived!

Today was a big step, I returned back to work. I am still working at Evergreen Academy but decided not to return as a full time teacher. I am still teaching but not fully responsible for one class, I am more of an aide and help first grade. This makes it VERY nice and flexible. I can be flexible with my hours and I can leave work at work and come home to my sweet baby girl. Justin and I are very lucky to live around my parents because they have graciously opened up their home for Ava during the day so Justin and I can both return to work.

I thought I would be very emotional but I was surprised. Only cried once and just a teeny bit, it helps to know Ava is in good hands. It also helps that my parents sent texts, pictures and videos throughout the day. Justin also helped by bringing me flowers to work. I miss Ava so much but seeing her when I get home is such a great feeling. Maybe one day I will be a stay at home mom, but for now this will work.

I will say one of the hardest things about sending your baby to daycare (besides the emotions) is making sure you are prepared. I had(am still havin) a hard time figuring out what Ava would need on a daily basis away from home and away from me.
* What I packed *
* 4 cases of diapers. Wanted them to have a stock

*wipes

* bottle warmer

* blankets

*bouncer, play mat, swing

*bottles and milk

I will say it is so hard to know how much breastmilk to leave, the biggest mistake would be for Ava to not have enough. It's hard to tell just yet how much she is eating every feeding. She has days where she isn't that hungry and others where she just can't get enough. Growth spurt???

I have researched and researched and its hard to say, very baby is different. I want Ava to be on breastmilk for as long as possible. I just hope that I can keep my supply up and be able to supply "daycare" with the appropriate amount of milk while being able to maintain a good stock in the freezer.

I did see this and thought it was interesting